Not being Able to work

I have been a stay at home parent for most of my oldest son’s life. I worked for about 3 months while my wife was pregnant with my youngest son. My wife works, because I am not able to work for very long at a time. I stay home and watch the kids.

I enjoy staying home with the kids and love spending time with them. I am very grateful that my wife is able to work and that she supports me. I like working and I often feel guilty for not being able to. Maybe one day if I work very hard or find a job that can work with me I will be able to work.

I have been working on writing children’s stories. Maybe one day I can sell some of them. I am trying to find someone to illustrate them for me.

I know people think I am lazy, but I have tried very hard to work. I just can not handle being around so many people all the time. Some days I  can do anything and some days I can do almost nothing.

My wife enjoys her work and has told me many time that she does not need me to work. It makes no sense for me to work, because I would just be working to pay for daycare.

I think that the hardest thing about staying home is going to Appointments. I have a hard time being around lots of people. It is very difficult for me to drive. My mother in law helps me when she can by driving me and going with me.