Communication

Communication is very hard for me. I struggle with even the smallest of conversations. The more people there is around me the harder it is for me to talk. If I am upset communication is almost impossible for me. It is very frustrating when I am trying to talk to someone, and I can’t.

Failed communication often leads to meltdowns. Failed communication makes me much more likely for me to give up on talking all to gather. I don’t like talking much. I find it much easier to talk one on one with people.

I do not speak well. Some time a leave long pauses between my words and other times I completely forget about what I am saying and start talking about something completely different. I like listing more than talking. I often fall to keep up my side of the conversation saying way too little or nothing at all. Sometimes I talk way too much and fail to realize the other person is becoming annoyed.

I don’t like phone calls, texting or any other form of written communication. Writing these blog posts are hard for me. I do it because it helps me move outside of my comfort zone and hopefully become more confident.

I can’t tell if it is helping much, but I think working on my book is. With my book I don’t feel like it is a message to anyone just a thing people can read.